But these people aren't dying from COVID. Let me give you several examples here.
An anesthesiologist intubated the patients like I think it was right
like bronchi and
of a patient and they couldn't get the sats up and for about five hours like we were waiting on a chest x-ray
to confirm that the placement was wrong and in the meantime while we're waiting for that and we've told the
Anesthesiologist that it was placed wrong because like literally only one side of his fucking chest is like
inflating
I had a heart rate of 40, and the resident starts doing chest compressions on him, which
is not what you do.
You just externally pace them, or you, you know, give them some atropine.
And then, you know, I run in there to stop him from doing chest compressions on somebody
with the fucking poles.
And then he decides to push Epi, he throws some pads on them.
him to defibrillate the guy in bradycardia okay he has a heart rate of
40 and a stable you know
bradycardic rhythm. We just need to give him some atropine and pace him.
He fucking defibrillates him and kills him, and I was literally ran out of like
the patient's room to get like the director of nursing who was standing out there and I'm like, can you stop him?
He's going to kill that patient.
He's going to kill that patient if he defibrillates him with bradycardia and a heart rate of 40 and
the director of nursing just shook his head and I turned around and he killed the dude.
Okay?
There was a nurse who placed an NG tube into some guy's lungs and filled his lungs with tube feeding.
There was a nurse who confused a long-acting insulin with a short-acting insulin and gave 30 units of a fast-acting insulin and killed the guy.
What else? What other stuff have I seen?
Yeah, it's just here they're just gonna let them rot on the vent.
They're medically mismanaging these patients.
And like, I'm not a doctor, guys.
I'm not professing to be a doctor by any means.
But there's, like I said,
basic standards of care that we have to do.
Like, when somebody's low on blood, like.
literally on the brink of a critical low blood level, we should replace the blood.
But I asked the residents and they're like, does he have internal bleeding?
And I said, no.
Then they're like, well, we're not replacing the blood.
Well, here's the thing.
And these COVID patients, they all eventually need a blood transfusion.
Their blood, like if you don't have enough blood to actually oxygenate your body, the vent settings don't fucking matter.
Okay.
And they don't matter because you have no oxygen carrying capacity of your blood.
Okay.
I told you about the patient were like all that like purulent drainage just kept seeping into his lungs because the et tube cuff
Was leaking and nobody has a fucking monometer here to check the pressures
And I finally figured that out and I kept saying hey, you know what his white blood cell count is steadily like
You know, we're having a problem with it
Do you want to start some antibiotics?
No, well, does he have a fever? And I said, no, he doesn't have a fever.
They didn't want to start antibiotics.
Day shift nurse finally got a chest x-ray.
He has full-blown pneumonia now.
I've been telling them this for a while, but because you didn't have a fever, they didn't
want to give me antibiotics.
We have a nurse who, like, fell asleep at the fucking nurse's station.
While we were all in rooms and her norepinephrine ran out and the guy had no fucking blood pressure
and didn't profuse his brain and I'm pretty sure his brain did.
That same nurse is now running a CRRT machine, a dialysis-like machine, that she has never
done before.
She said she'll figure it out.
okay I'm pretty fucking smart and I figure a lot of shit out but I would
never attempt to try and figure out a CRRT machine on the fly like we are
adequately staffed there's a shit ton of staff in there like and we have a
nurse who does CRRT in there she has a different patient loan we told them like
hey let's just swap these nurses so the one that knows how to work this machine
can work this machine but they didn't want to do that
So I'm pretty sure that patient will be dead here in a couple hours.
And this is why I freaked the fuck out yesterday.
Because nobody is listening.
They don't care what is happening to these people.
They don't.
I'm literally coming here every day and watching them kill them.
Like, literally, some of these people are just on sedation to keep them on the vents.
Nothing else.
I have a lady on a tranq on a vent.
And she's not even fucking cognizant. She's not even on sedation.
You know what we give her every day? We give her breathing treatments, all buterol.
And she gets insulin. And that's it.
that's it we're not treating the COVID guys like for real we're not treating
the COVID
You know every day we try and get these guys off the vents right because you know there's criteria for weaning
Every day the day shift nurse will wean them down like to like minimum sedation
every night we come in and we get the same two residents and they fucking max
out all the sedation again and undo all the work from the day shift then the day
shift attending will come in in the all-do rounds and they'll be like he
wasn't synchronizing with the vent so we had to turn all the sedation on and I'm
like he wasn't synchronizing with the vent because it's in the wrong vent mode
What am I going to use? What am I going to use?
I legit don't even know what to do anymore.
Like, I tried calling advocacy groups.
I tried talking with management here, like the nursing admin.
We still have a hundred percent mortality rate on the ICU unit. I would just left
But I mean they're living longer because we have like legit ICU nurses there
CDC, finally, like, not the CDC.
FDA approved yesterday the remdesivir study like to start using remdesivir for
guys I don't even know what to do anymore and this is why it had a
complete fucking breakdown like I literally had to call my friend Lisa and
Facetime her and she answered the fucking phone while she was in the shower because she like
knew I was having a hard time to talk to her because it's like going in the
fucking Twilight Zone like everyone here
Is okay with this
Look, the only way I can kind of put this into context for everybody is
And this is gonna be kind of an extreme example. This is like really the only thing I can come up with
it's like if we were in Nazi Germany and they were taking the Jews to go put
them in a gas chamber I'm the one like they're saying hey this is not good this
is bad this is wrong we should not be doing this and then everyone tells me
hang in there you're doing a great job you can't save everybody you're you
know you're amazing you're a great nurse
guys i know i'm a fucking good nurse i know i go in there and i give it 500% every day
i know i'm not being negligent okay i fucking know that what i need is someone to help me save
these people from being killed okay from gross negligence and complete medical mismatch
And no one is listening to me.
and get them together for instant.
Like, for real. Nobody's listening.
Like, I legit don't know what to do anymore.
Can someone come up with, like, some type of a...
solution for me because I'm kind of out of ideas
Thank you.
You know I can try and talk with some of the other nurses here, and they're like well
You can't save everybody
And they all know what's happening they all agree with me
And they all just shake their heads, and I'm like am I the only one
who is not a sociopath to think that this is okay
I mean, guys, they literally don't even know when they're dead.
Like, how many times have I told you they've assigned me a dead person?
How long have they been dead?
Nobody knows.
like how is anybody assessing anything without a stethoscope normally we have
like those disposable stethoscopes but I knew what we were coming into so I
brought my old chunky one
Nobody. Nobody's listened to anybody's lungs as long as I've been here.
Even with disposable stethoscopes.
I am led to know you telling you that they're murdering these people.
And nobody will listen to me.
I mean, like I said, I'm not a doctor, but I'm pretty sure that when you defibrillate
somebody with a heartbeat of 40 in a stable rhythm and you kill them, that's murder.
And I'm pretty sure...
that when you put somebody's peep up to, like, 25 and peep doesn't go past, I think, like, 15, 20, and you blow their lungs out and they die, I'm pretty sure that's murder.
You know, I mean, I've just watched a doctor drop a central line and fucking rupture, like, this, like, clavian, like, vein, and the guy fucking bled to death.
I mean, COVID didn't break that central line.
COVID didn't kill that guy.
I mean, he was a COVID patient.
I mean, every single patient I've taken care of, guys, is a COVID patient.
Like, I've never had a non-COVID patient, okay?
Rushed anesthesiologist with an ET tube and retro-thyrosophagus and a kite choked to death on his own blood.
COVID didn't place that ET tube incorrectly.
And nobody cares because they're all minorities and we're in the fucking hood.
You know, and that's just not okay.
You know, I grew up really poor.
And so I know what it's like to be like completely forgotten and for nobody to advocate for you.
I'm sitting in the vending machine room because it's nice and cool.
I'm in between units right now so they haven't realized I'm gone.
I figured I'd have a mini meltdown and then get my shit together
because I've never been to the other unit.
Mind you, I've been on this unit the whole time and whatever, I'm flexible, but once again, you know, I talked to
Admin the next day I got moved
It's what happened at the other hospital. They don't care what's happening to these people
And I just have to keep watching them die.
All right guys, I'm going in the unit. Let's see how they kill him there, okay?
Stay safe stay out of NYC for your health care